THIRD !

Tim has left me . He broke up with me on the 18th January 2012 .

He says that his love for me is dying . And that he tried relighting the flames many many times at every chance , but failed to do so . I feel so heart broken .

We talked about marriage and kids . We promised each other to walk down this rough road together , hand in hand , working hard and doing our best . We were gonna finish our studies , get a job and save up for our future .

What happened to the promises he gave me ?

I feel so betrayed . I guarded my heart well and he crashed into my life , making me fall in love once again . He made a person who has given up on love , love again .

I gave him my heart , and told him to be careful with what's left of it . He took great care of that fragile dying heart , gave it loads of love and support . Miraculously , that weak and dying heart was nursed back to good health and was able to love again .

The heart trusted and hoped that the care giver was a man of his words and that he would love her always . But she trusted the wrong person again .

Now , he has left . Leaving the well recovered heart back in its first condition when he found it .

The heart is bleeding profusely , with many opened wounds . Surviving is almost impossible , without any care and help .

Every breath hurts and every night is spend in turmoil . All those wonderful memories slowly fade away , no longer within reach .

All the dreams and hopes have been destroyed . Leaving me feeling lost and afraid of loving again .

I'm tired of pretending that it doesn't matter much , when it was everything i lived for .

I wished i could sleep and never wake up again . This way , the pain will never be able to reach me .

Tim is a monster , a beast . To think that i loved you with all my heart and might , and after everything i have done , you left eventually .

Love never lasts . Nothing much really does .

CherylAliciaChua .